Sadness and food

Up until last week I was eating like crazy. I said it was the holidays but deep down I knew it was something else. I started a new relationship a few months ago. I told her I loved her and then I began to shut down and eat. It is what I do, I stuff my emotions with food. My stomach began to hurt, I was eating too much sugar and fatty foods and I felt like crap. My pants were getting tight. I was panicking. I wanted to break up with her as I always do when I shut down with a woman. Last Saturday I decided I would eat really healthy for the next week. I ate mostly vegetables and fruit with almonds and some tofu. I have had moments since then of emotions just coming out of the blue and I find myself suddenly crying. This afternoon I felt that way too. I started to think I should eat and I did, but the emotions were still there. I tried to divert myself from them by watching t.v., playing video games, eating. In the end I cried and I feel better. I don't feel like eating anymore.